TELL YOUR FRIENDS ITS A WOLFPACK PARTTYYYYY! && WERE FLY LIKE A G6!
I had one my most memorable best/worst weekends this past weekend. It all started on Friday when I finally got to hang out with Quincy Quacks! And she noticed that I just needed to go out and have some fun. So we met up after I got off of work Quincy, Tina, and her brother picked me up from my house to go back to Quincy's house so the girls can get ready and drop her brother off. After we were done we headed to her friend Ata's house to meet up with more people to go to the party which I had no idea where it was or who's it was but whatevs! When I got there I felt really uncomfortable because Quincy was cupcakin with her "boytoy" and I hardly know Tina and the other guys at the house were playing COD -__-. So I just did the typical thing and texted on my phone. After we finally headed to the party and the whole wolfpack went to this guys mansion house party and when we got there you know it was chill everyone was pretty wasted already and we were just kind of standing around for a little bit then Tina goes " come on everyone lets take a shot!" I was kind of reluctant to take one because I just already was headed downhill with this boring night and then Andrew convinced me to take one so I did and after a couple more... we all loosened up and had a BLAST! I was basically hanging out with everyone but Quincy that night hahahaha she was no where to be found! It was mainly Kenny that kept me company which was great because I had a great time. Up until we had to leave and it was this silly "ev & santa clara" drama but whatevs then we went back to Ata's house to play bp and cards and stuff then we went home which ended our Friday night.
Saturday night we went back to Ata's house because that was where the partaay was at. So we waited about almost two hours at In n Out for Tina's bf and his friends to buy food and in the end we weren't even going to the same party so I mean I didn't mind too much but she did and if I was in her position I would freakin kick his ass for making me wait that long. So we went to Ata's house and we played King's Cup and I kept losing because I was too busy texting and not paying attention lolol! Thats what I get -_- then we played BP and Quincy had a little fuss with Trung so I ended up having to play 2 against 1 and I WON! muhahahhahah! Im a beast! hahaha so then after my friend Andrew took me home and then I had to wake up the next morning and go to work uggggggh!
Sunday was chill and Tony decided to have a BBQ which was perfect because it was beautiful and sunny and nice outside even though he had it at night and of course I would invite Quincy! And I am glad she came! Well in a short little while that BBQ became a Sunday Party. 3rd night in a row! This was my worst night I absolutely got MESSED UP. Im a light weight I will admit and I got it from my mom she is SUPER light weight. But it's okay first time for everything. Man did I barf and they caught me on camera! OMGOSH. I had the worst hangover it was just oudfnlksafjlka;sjfkl;ajfks;. Well I had loads of fun this weekend and I am so glad I met a bunch of new friends to the point where we are bigger than a wolfpack party we are PARTY SQUARE because we are the business!! Turn any party into a crackin party and without us it aint shiieeeettt!!
[....]
I don't need to say anything anymore because I have said more than enough for the past 16 months. I always say more than enough and its just enough to make him not have anything to say at all. So this is simple, it is his call. But know that time is running out... I can't wait as long as you think I can. I am human too I have feelings. I can't living like this any longer.. this is love torture. So it is your call. I have done all I can do.. and said more than what you want to hear.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Thursday, February 25, 2010
022510
As always it is just your typical day... today we had a class meeting about "gradnite" and basically we have two choices but we still have a transportation problem for both of them since we are not allowed to drive ourselves there we have to have a school bus take us to either a cruise ship in San Francisco or Disneyland. The cruise is a 3 or 4 hour cruise for $60-$90 with "all you can drink soda, hors d'oeuvres, and a DJ (so basically it is like James Logan's prom last year except without the 3 course meal.) Or we could go to Disneyland with seniors from all over California for $200 for 3 days. So which should I vote on? I pick Disneyland but then again I get bus sick easily so maybe the cruise their better be a good "disk jockey!"
Mochi is the sweetest and cutest and can be one of the most smartest dogs if she knew how to pee on the pad already!!! Gah she is a FAIL right now! Damn it!
GAAAHH!! ( I am continuing on my post because my laptop died earlier today) SHE PEED ON THE PAD! Well I had to put her on there but still SHE PEED!! YAY MOCHI! :D
Well ABDC was quite interesting / good groups who were on top did their worst performance this week but groups who did bad last week stepped up their game this week. Right now I am watching Taking the Stage and Tyler hurt his ankle OF COURSE! And now he is crying And I REALLY WANT TO WATCH TURN THE BEAT AROUND WHICH PREMIERS TOMORROW AT 10pm!
sigh.... I have a lot to say about me and Shawn right now but I am tired of repeating myself... I just don't know how to handle this... I know it has been 15 months and almost 16 but.. as much as I try to keep it together in all reality everything is falling apart I am falling apart. This is so hard on me.. I know that I am an independent person and I can handle myself but this is the most hardest thing I have ever had to go through.. I feel so overwhelemed and clueless. I mean having him here for 6 straight days was nice but I know that we are people who need our space and you know I don't mind that but this is too much space. I just don't know what to do... I don't want to be that girlfriend that nags to him all the time and makes him do things he doesn't want to but I don't know what to do with my feelings.. I just wish I had an answer to everything.
Mochi is the sweetest and cutest and can be one of the most smartest dogs if she knew how to pee on the pad already!!! Gah she is a FAIL right now! Damn it!
GAAAHH!! ( I am continuing on my post because my laptop died earlier today) SHE PEED ON THE PAD! Well I had to put her on there but still SHE PEED!! YAY MOCHI! :D
Well ABDC was quite interesting / good groups who were on top did their worst performance this week but groups who did bad last week stepped up their game this week. Right now I am watching Taking the Stage and Tyler hurt his ankle OF COURSE! And now he is crying And I REALLY WANT TO WATCH TURN THE BEAT AROUND WHICH PREMIERS TOMORROW AT 10pm!
sigh.... I have a lot to say about me and Shawn right now but I am tired of repeating myself... I just don't know how to handle this... I know it has been 15 months and almost 16 but.. as much as I try to keep it together in all reality everything is falling apart I am falling apart. This is so hard on me.. I know that I am an independent person and I can handle myself but this is the most hardest thing I have ever had to go through.. I feel so overwhelemed and clueless. I mean having him here for 6 straight days was nice but I know that we are people who need our space and you know I don't mind that but this is too much space. I just don't know what to do... I don't want to be that girlfriend that nags to him all the time and makes him do things he doesn't want to but I don't know what to do with my feelings.. I just wish I had an answer to everything.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
mellowww
This week has been pretty relaxing Mochi definitely keeps me company and helps keep my mind off of Shawn. I love Mochi so much I have to remind myself sometimes that I am only dogsitting :[ She needs to hurry up and learn how to pee on the pad!! She already knows to stay away from bedrooms and the bathroom and she knows how to sit but she doesn't know where to pee! oy vaaayy!! But it is okay, it takes time to learn but I am sure she will learn soon :] Going to school can be a good few hours to come back too but every period just reminds me on why I hate the kids at my school.. I want to slap them all. I am so anxious to get out of high school it is not even funny! But then again, I will miss some students from their whom I have grown a really close friendship with. We all have created a lot of memories and there are much more to come :]
Work was actually really fun today :] I love hanging out with my co workers and us goofing around at work. They are the only reason why I stay at Papaya. I just wish that I could really start moving up on my job status but then again I only work like 3-4 days a week so yeaah I am pretty sure this summer I will move up :]
- I wish that Shawn would have a nice talk with me at night like he plays COD
Work was actually really fun today :] I love hanging out with my co workers and us goofing around at work. They are the only reason why I stay at Papaya. I just wish that I could really start moving up on my job status but then again I only work like 3-4 days a week so yeaah I am pretty sure this summer I will move up :]
- I wish that Shawn would have a nice talk with me at night like he plays COD
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Monday, February 22, 2010
"winter break"

Before I can even begin talking about how my break went I have to say I was reluctant on having Shawn come since we were in this long lasting argument. I had no idea what to do the moment I saw him at the airport. I didn't want to fake any emotions I was feeling but at the same time I wanted him to enjoy his trip here.
Day 1:
I picked him up at the airport and I was about 15 minutes early. The San Jose International Airport looks absolutely spectacular! It can be a tad overwhelming because it is so big, but it will come in handy when there is a long line :] Well after I picked him up we went back to the house and we sat and talked a little bit about what is going to happen next... after we kissed I realized that all of my butterflies in my tummy flew away. They were no where to be found. I was shocked and confused.. I refused to think I lost my feelings for him but I knew it wasn't because I lost feelings for him it was because he lost my trust. So it is up to him to gain it back... After we talked we went to my aunt's house for the new years party and it was pretty slow and mellow at first then when the red envelopes came out the story turned. I know how it feels to be in a room full of adults that you don't really know where you feel like everyone is staring at you judging you so I tried to be a good host and just let Shawn do his own thing so he could feel more comfortable but my family encouraged him to join us and even though he was hesitant at first he got in line and ended up getting a few extra bucks ;] we played vietnamese lotto and Shawn's luck came in this year and he won one game! (it was split with Louis though)
Day 2:
Valentines Day.. what to do what to do.. well my plan got backfired since new years was still in session and so bright and early in the morning we went to a bunch of family houses to do the traditional family lion dance featuring.. the kids mainly Louis and Newton and dun da na na!!! SHAWN SAYSENESOUK PLAY
ING BUDDHA! Again, I didn't want him to feel awkward so I begged my family to not let him to anything he didn't want to do but he was a good sport and put on the outfit and played the role like a pro :] We also went to the nursing home where my great grandma is and even Shawn got a red envelope from her! I DIDN'T EVEN GET ONE! -_- Well after we went home and took a nap then went to Todai where we will probably never go again because it was ridicously expensive. And then after we gambled at Tony's house with his family and ended up going home dead even.
Day 3:
SHOPPING DAY NUMERO UNO! Went to Oakridge and I showed off my man like a trophy. Not saying he is one but I was just so glad everyone could finally see him after how much I talk about him they probably know just as much about him as he does himself if not more! Then after we were going to watch a movie but then I didn't feel like it so we met up with the group and we went to Krung Thai which was lame bceause my mom got sick and I had to get her porridge but nothing was open so I got her wonton and gatorade and Shawn and I were mad at each other because both of us have no patience and Shawn just raises his voice quite often and I absolutely hate it when people do that I don't take crap from no one so I get mad when he does that and it was just chaos. So Krung Thai for us was a short quite dinner. Then we let it go in the car going to TapiocaExpress aka tapx. Brian told us it was down the streeet..... MY ASS! It was like 23408320432 minutes away!! Then after we went back home.
Day 4:
okay I don't remember what we did this day but what I do know is that we took pictures on my photobooth with Shawns booty. yeaap thats about it.. wait... I remember this was the day Brian took us to San Felipe road where Shawn was a little pansy and he wouldn't look up oh man... I would tell the story but we have a video on Brian's phone instead I will post that up once I get it..
Day 5:
This was the fun day... the never ending day... well it all started at the Santa Clara Billiards. We were playing pool and as usual guys take over and I sit on the side -_- Shawn is actually pretty good but I am glad to see that these guys really bond well with each other and it makes Shawn feel just like home.. after pool we went to Dennys where the magic happened. I don't even know where to start... well we ordered 12 pancake puppies and it took an hour for them to come out. We were all so tired we had no idea what was going on. Brian hooks all the straws together and sips on the farthest water away from him then Tony's got this asian mob thing going on in the corner then the salt in Ivan's water then the swab of paper on the ceiling.. oh god the night just basically never ended and we laugehd all the way home.



Day 6:
Basically Shawns last day in town and we went to San Francisco with Tom. And again Shawn and I were arguing about parking and blah blah some ridiculous crap at Glen Park Bart because the parking lot was no where to be found. Then we took the bart and it was everyones first time except for me. Then got off on Powell and went shopping! Tom said hi to probably every single girl that he saw and they all either didn't say anything and/or didn't make eye contact or was busy doing something else. It was quite hilarious actually it was the joke of the day. We decided to go back to San Jose to eat and the winner is..WINGSTOP! Guess who we ran into? Thuong, Mila, Jessica, and Andy.Then after we came home and we went bowling at AMF 300 and the first game Shawn beat everyone by a landslide then second game Tom whopped everyones ass HARD. Then we went to Quicklys and realized it was 2 i
sigh.. the hardest part wasn't saying goodbye it was not knowing if we will last.. I know that hanging out with the guys really helped him feel more comfortable about deciding to move here but he is still too attached to what he already built over there.. I don't know what to do but the truth is there is nothing I can do. This move is all up to him.. I want him to move here of course I do but does he? I asked him to tell me soon so then if all falls down then I can pick the pieces of whats left up quicker...
Friday, February 12, 2010
...
021210:
just one more day until he comes and we still haven't made ends even. i mean we talked a little bit yesterday but i just was so lost and confused i mean i wanted to believe him but he really broke my heart yesterday. he tells me that "it was a one day thing and he was speaking out of anger." i told myself that after reading that comment i would try my best to not take it to the heart but it is so hard not to when someone says those harsh words to you and it is supposed to be more than your best friend but someone who truly loves you or well at least i thought he did. that is what hurt me the most and all of my anger and disappointment just spilled out when i was texting him yesterday before i went golfing. i just needed to get out of the house and just spend stay occupied and not think about anything.
well on a brighter note, when we were at the Los Lagos Golf Course and the boys were late because they went to McDonalds! It was one of the most funnest golf days ever :] my friends definitely made me forget all of my troubles up until we all had to leave :[ then i called up tom and we went to eastridge and i felt and looked horrible so i put on my shades at the mall yeah i know don't say anything i already know what you are thinking. and tom pretended to be my security guard so i won't look so weird haha "ms. brenda song." and after i made sure he remembered what kind of eyelashes i like and what number (red cherry #1 & 47 :] ) well after that i had a huge craving for Today for some odd reason but we weren't ballin enough to eat it becuase it costs 24 dollars! after that we went to the food court and i had the hardest time picking something out to eat and i think it was because i was just really upset and i lost my appetite when my day is just completely ruined. then we got ice cream and the new chocolate dipped ice cream cones at McDonalds are good! after that i took tom home and then my night basically ended.
021210:
so today i woke up did the usual morning routine then left for school. i completely forgot it was friday until i remembered i was doing a LTA today. well periods one thorugh four were very mellow not tough or had a lot of work at all. during lunch it was hard to really get everyone amped up when my fellow emcee was not very energetic soooo yeaaah i will just leave it as that. after the lunch time activity my last period we watched the cutest movie i forgot what it was called but i didn't sleep for once! haha then after school i went home and took a nap then a call wakes me up and it was my mom. she told me to come get her because she accidently locked herself out of her car so i was like okay and she kept rushing me and things do not go well when i am rushed so i had to get all my stuff ready for work and then i had a feeling i was staring at my room for some reason but then i was like eh whatever im just dazing. then after that i close my door and i realize i don't have my keys and i left them inside FMLx13840842304873280473!!! damn! so then my aunt had to come get me and i had to have her drive me to work or else i was going to be late. so i got my keys went to work and asked my manager trung to take me home after work. today was one of the longest and tiring days ever. it was horrible mentally because when i would listen to our stores music i constantly kept thinking about him and everything that happened and i was about to go into tears but i had to stay professional. he has got me completely drowned. i just lost control of myself and i feel like im exaggerating at times but he is just too special to me and it was just a hard slap in the face. then i try my best to talk to him today but he was always busy so i just gave up. he is right now at the club which i am not suprised but yeah i probably won't get a chance to talk to him until i actually see him tomorrow. sigh... well stay tuned; we will see what happens next...... <3 jasmine nguyen.
just one more day until he comes and we still haven't made ends even. i mean we talked a little bit yesterday but i just was so lost and confused i mean i wanted to believe him but he really broke my heart yesterday. he tells me that "it was a one day thing and he was speaking out of anger." i told myself that after reading that comment i would try my best to not take it to the heart but it is so hard not to when someone says those harsh words to you and it is supposed to be more than your best friend but someone who truly loves you or well at least i thought he did. that is what hurt me the most and all of my anger and disappointment just spilled out when i was texting him yesterday before i went golfing. i just needed to get out of the house and just spend stay occupied and not think about anything.
well on a brighter note, when we were at the Los Lagos Golf Course and the boys were late because they went to McDonalds! It was one of the most funnest golf days ever :] my friends definitely made me forget all of my troubles up until we all had to leave :[ then i called up tom and we went to eastridge and i felt and looked horrible so i put on my shades at the mall yeah i know don't say anything i already know what you are thinking. and tom pretended to be my security guard so i won't look so weird haha "ms. brenda song." and after i made sure he remembered what kind of eyelashes i like and what number (red cherry #1 & 47 :] ) well after that i had a huge craving for Today for some odd reason but we weren't ballin enough to eat it becuase it costs 24 dollars! after that we went to the food court and i had the hardest time picking something out to eat and i think it was because i was just really upset and i lost my appetite when my day is just completely ruined. then we got ice cream and the new chocolate dipped ice cream cones at McDonalds are good! after that i took tom home and then my night basically ended.
021210:
so today i woke up did the usual morning routine then left for school. i completely forgot it was friday until i remembered i was doing a LTA today. well periods one thorugh four were very mellow not tough or had a lot of work at all. during lunch it was hard to really get everyone amped up when my fellow emcee was not very energetic soooo yeaaah i will just leave it as that. after the lunch time activity my last period we watched the cutest movie i forgot what it was called but i didn't sleep for once! haha then after school i went home and took a nap then a call wakes me up and it was my mom. she told me to come get her because she accidently locked herself out of her car so i was like okay and she kept rushing me and things do not go well when i am rushed so i had to get all my stuff ready for work and then i had a feeling i was staring at my room for some reason but then i was like eh whatever im just dazing. then after that i close my door and i realize i don't have my keys and i left them inside FMLx13840842304873280473!!! damn! so then my aunt had to come get me and i had to have her drive me to work or else i was going to be late. so i got my keys went to work and asked my manager trung to take me home after work. today was one of the longest and tiring days ever. it was horrible mentally because when i would listen to our stores music i constantly kept thinking about him and everything that happened and i was about to go into tears but i had to stay professional. he has got me completely drowned. i just lost control of myself and i feel like im exaggerating at times but he is just too special to me and it was just a hard slap in the face. then i try my best to talk to him today but he was always busy so i just gave up. he is right now at the club which i am not suprised but yeah i probably won't get a chance to talk to him until i actually see him tomorrow. sigh... well stay tuned; we will see what happens next...... <3 jasmine nguyen.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
&& i am back. sorta.
wow i just remembered that i had a blogspot! Why make a tumblr when you have a blogspot?! :]
well i am going to try my best and blog everyday like i said.. i will try no promises.
021110:
we have been through so much as a couple. we have had our ups and downs and been through thick and thin. and now i don't know what to think. i mean it wasn't so much the question anymore that i was concerned about it was his reply to the question. " i don't know if i really love her or if i am saying it to please the both of us." after everything we have been through we fought through one of the hardest relationships to maintain being 500 miles away from each other and now everything just seems like a complete lie. i know that he never wanted to move here in the first place and every time he tells me he does i feel like hes lying through his teeth and holding the truth under his breath. i felt completely lost. i had no idea how to take this. i knew i shouldn't take it to the heart because i might have interpreted it wrong but i couldn't help but read that small sentence over and over again to myself all night last night. all i ever wanted was the truth and i know in order to get the truth you must tell the truth and i tell him absolutely everything! i feel like our relationship is at its peak of breaking right now even though that is the last thing i would ever want between us. but if this is how it going to be then i guess i have to accept it. he is coming in two days and i have no idea how i am going to face him. i just wish i knew all of this from the start. i don't know if he is just physically attracted to me or does he really like me? maybe because i am so far away it feels like there really is nothing there it is just someone to talk to at night and someone to call. i am so disappointed in myself and us. i can't even begin to describe how i feel right now that is the best form of expression i could think of but it is so much more. i want to talk to him about this this weekend but it is new years and its supposed to be a great start to the new year. i have no idea what to do... i wish he could just talk to me the way i talk to him so i know exactly where he stands and if the case is that where he stands is no where then so be it.
well i am going to try my best and blog everyday like i said.. i will try no promises.
021110:
we have been through so much as a couple. we have had our ups and downs and been through thick and thin. and now i don't know what to think. i mean it wasn't so much the question anymore that i was concerned about it was his reply to the question. " i don't know if i really love her or if i am saying it to please the both of us." after everything we have been through we fought through one of the hardest relationships to maintain being 500 miles away from each other and now everything just seems like a complete lie. i know that he never wanted to move here in the first place and every time he tells me he does i feel like hes lying through his teeth and holding the truth under his breath. i felt completely lost. i had no idea how to take this. i knew i shouldn't take it to the heart because i might have interpreted it wrong but i couldn't help but read that small sentence over and over again to myself all night last night. all i ever wanted was the truth and i know in order to get the truth you must tell the truth and i tell him absolutely everything! i feel like our relationship is at its peak of breaking right now even though that is the last thing i would ever want between us. but if this is how it going to be then i guess i have to accept it. he is coming in two days and i have no idea how i am going to face him. i just wish i knew all of this from the start. i don't know if he is just physically attracted to me or does he really like me? maybe because i am so far away it feels like there really is nothing there it is just someone to talk to at night and someone to call. i am so disappointed in myself and us. i can't even begin to describe how i feel right now that is the best form of expression i could think of but it is so much more. i want to talk to him about this this weekend but it is new years and its supposed to be a great start to the new year. i have no idea what to do... i wish he could just talk to me the way i talk to him so i know exactly where he stands and if the case is that where he stands is no where then so be it.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Goodbye
Goodbye Seniors class of 2009 you did it! Looking back at all of our memories together it is overwhelming on how fast time has gone by. Today was by far one of my most hardest days to say bye to such a wonderful group of friends. I cannot even begin to start on how special each and every one of you are. When I say "you" I mean to all of my friends who are graduating this year or have already graduated this month. You guys have shown me through the heartaches and joys of life and to always believe in myself and despite any negative connotation any person has ever given to me I can make it through everything. You guys have fought and struggled through high school and are now beginning the start of a successful and prosperous life. I know that each and every one of you will succeed in everything that you dedicate your heart and mind into and come out on top. Keep moving forward and only look back to smile at all of your accomplishments. I only wish and pray the best for all of you guys and nothing more then the best because you guys deserve it. Much love stay beautiful and strong.
Sincerely,
Jasmine Nguyen
Sincerely,
Jasmine Nguyen
Friday, April 17, 2009
thoughts.
Originally this blogspot was for my personal thoughts until I started using it more for english class although I don't feel like making a new blogspot so I will just continue with what I am here to do; write.
After talking to my friend about his personal relationship it made me question mine. Everything is going so well, a little too well. I hate to be the typical girl that every guy hates but I got to get something off of my chest. Now don't get me wrong I love every little bit of everything that we have it's just that... I know that he likes/loves me, but sometimes it just seems like celebrity's in front of the camera. When we are with other people or perhaps he is with someone other then me everything is different the tables have turned. When the cameras go off and it is just me and him its perfect in my eyes. He shows so much compassion and love. We are definitely both on the same page when it comes to hanging out with our friends and setting our lovey dovey stuff to the side although I wonder if it is even there. Of course I can't expect anything, but hearing my guy friends talk about their girls as if they were their world and how much they cherish and love their girl makes me feel a little left out. But how can I feel left out when I have everything I could ever wish for? I talk him like I am telling a fairy tale, it never ends and only the best comes out from it. Am I just a painting in a gallery? There are things that I don't want to talk to him about because it will always be the same answer. I don't even know why I am getting my head into this but this has been on my mind since the day we first started talking. Why is it so hard for him to tell the world that I am his girl? Yeah, I know that he looks at other girls and being the attentive girl that I am I love attention. But I always flaunt that I am taken and when I see someone all I can see is him. Yea, he may look at them and be impressed for a few seconds but hold back because he is taken but is that the reason why? Just because he is taken? Let me put it this way, when I look at other guys all I see is him. I don't see any other face but his. Whatever I do I always keep him in mind. I choose not to walk away because I am so deeply in love with everything he has to offer and with him. Is it me that he loves? Or the thought of us just for that second that we are alone and once were not it vanishes? I know that if I ever told him about this, he will just say " okay then what do you want me to do go brag about you to everyone and talk about you 24/7" the situation always has to be turned it will never just be heard and be taken into consideration. I hope someday he will realize that yes all of him may be there when it's just us but only half of him is there when the cameras turn on and the other half that is missing is me. I don't want to feel like the bad guy. I am always the one that finds something wrong with us when looking at the bigger picture we are more then good were perfect. When I say I don't want to be that sterotypical girl that every guy hates is that I don't want to be the one that is always complaining and finding things wrong with us. But it's different when I have held it in so long. Am I do anything new? Or are you use to everything from your past. Everytime I see a couple I think to myself... " why can't that be me?" and when I am with him I still wonder... " why can't that be me?" Are we really on the same page?
After talking to my friend about his personal relationship it made me question mine. Everything is going so well, a little too well. I hate to be the typical girl that every guy hates but I got to get something off of my chest. Now don't get me wrong I love every little bit of everything that we have it's just that... I know that he likes/loves me, but sometimes it just seems like celebrity's in front of the camera. When we are with other people or perhaps he is with someone other then me everything is different the tables have turned. When the cameras go off and it is just me and him its perfect in my eyes. He shows so much compassion and love. We are definitely both on the same page when it comes to hanging out with our friends and setting our lovey dovey stuff to the side although I wonder if it is even there. Of course I can't expect anything, but hearing my guy friends talk about their girls as if they were their world and how much they cherish and love their girl makes me feel a little left out. But how can I feel left out when I have everything I could ever wish for? I talk him like I am telling a fairy tale, it never ends and only the best comes out from it. Am I just a painting in a gallery? There are things that I don't want to talk to him about because it will always be the same answer. I don't even know why I am getting my head into this but this has been on my mind since the day we first started talking. Why is it so hard for him to tell the world that I am his girl? Yeah, I know that he looks at other girls and being the attentive girl that I am I love attention. But I always flaunt that I am taken and when I see someone all I can see is him. Yea, he may look at them and be impressed for a few seconds but hold back because he is taken but is that the reason why? Just because he is taken? Let me put it this way, when I look at other guys all I see is him. I don't see any other face but his. Whatever I do I always keep him in mind. I choose not to walk away because I am so deeply in love with everything he has to offer and with him. Is it me that he loves? Or the thought of us just for that second that we are alone and once were not it vanishes? I know that if I ever told him about this, he will just say " okay then what do you want me to do go brag about you to everyone and talk about you 24/7" the situation always has to be turned it will never just be heard and be taken into consideration. I hope someday he will realize that yes all of him may be there when it's just us but only half of him is there when the cameras turn on and the other half that is missing is me. I don't want to feel like the bad guy. I am always the one that finds something wrong with us when looking at the bigger picture we are more then good were perfect. When I say I don't want to be that sterotypical girl that every guy hates is that I don't want to be the one that is always complaining and finding things wrong with us. But it's different when I have held it in so long. Am I do anything new? Or are you use to everything from your past. Everytime I see a couple I think to myself... " why can't that be me?" and when I am with him I still wonder... " why can't that be me?" Are we really on the same page?
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
F. Scott Fitzgerald Quotes
"The glamour of the rich became an important fact in his life. In his writing, the rich and the "liberated" were to become symbols of the death of the "old America" in the dawn of an age of moral irresponsibility and mindless selfishness. From the very beginning of his career, Fitzgerald would write a poignant moral history of the country."
It says right in the quote that his prosperous days was a big influence on his writings. It gave him insight on American History and since then he wrote about the history of our country.
"He was a very popular undergraduate and gained early fame as a writer for the student drama society."
People recognized his work even during his graduate days which then leads to a promising future and everyone has the power to spread the word which then gives your name out and people start hearing about what you have to offer into this world especially if they like what you do.
Reflections Of American Culture
Look back at some of your past blogs. What do the books we've read this year tell us about American culture? What do they tell us about some of the challenges or conflicts we have encountered since the beginning of the country? Do the books tell us anything about the American Dream?
Past books we have read reflect on American culture by reminding us our freedom that comes with being an American. For example Huckleberry Finn or Fahrenheit 451. In Huckleberry Finn reminds us that we are all equals and individuals and should not be judged on the color of our skin. Fahrenheit reminds us that the media is brainwashing although it is our free choice to approach the media in whatever way we would like.
Friday, February 27, 2009
SCREIBER!
Scrieber,
I was not here monday and tuesday of this week (february 23 &24) so I don't exactly know what the blog assignment was. I saw that period 3 had a lot of blogs that were posted which I think they were done in class....
I was not here monday and tuesday of this week (february 23 &24) so I don't exactly know what the blog assignment was. I saw that period 3 had a lot of blogs that were posted which I think they were done in class....
Personal Ads
Look at all the Personal Ads. Who did the best job of selling J. Alfred Prufrock? What specific details about him did they use in their ad?
I think everyone was creative into making thier ad. All of them were amusing yet advertised J. Alfred Prufrock very well. I forgot which group but there was one in particular where the artwork was outstanding. Who ever drew that has an amazing talent. I thought my group had a real funny one the "love me" shirt I thought of last minute. Sylvia and I had a great time making that poster. Everyone mainly had the same concept, kind of like a EHARMONY kind of thing. Stating what your looking, for what you look like, etc, I enjoyed this project a lot it was fun :]
I think everyone was creative into making thier ad. All of them were amusing yet advertised J. Alfred Prufrock very well. I forgot which group but there was one in particular where the artwork was outstanding. Who ever drew that has an amazing talent. I thought my group had a real funny one the "love me" shirt I thought of last minute. Sylvia and I had a great time making that poster. Everyone mainly had the same concept, kind of like a EHARMONY kind of thing. Stating what your looking, for what you look like, etc, I enjoyed this project a lot it was fun :]
Thursday, February 19, 2009
romantic connection <3
I think at Gunderson there are a lot of people like J. Alfred and I think his romantic level is very stereotypical in a high school relationship. I don't think its always that people have a "hard" time having a romantic connection with others I think its either fear or choice. I believe everyone in this world has a soul mate out there somewhere in this world but its up to them to stay open minded and make good decisions. The reason why most high school relationships do not work out is because they are immature about their relationship. The word "love" is not a word that should be thrown around it should be taken into careful consideration and a matter of real thought before saying it. Sterotypical high school relationships is basically just misued context, miscommunication, drama, and speed; well in my opinion :] Not everyone matures at the same time and lucky for me I matured a lot faster then others and I experienced a lot of bad and good things about being in a relationship with someone. Although I can say as of right now, I am in the best relationship of my lfie so far.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
The American Dream.
According to Wikipedia the American Dream is defined as,
"The American Dream is the freedom that allows all citizens and most residents[1] of the United States to pursue their goals in life through hard work and free choice (see Immigration to the United States). One person may place monetary gain as their highest goal, and thus strive for this in a very American way, gaining through ability rather than social status. For another, the American Dream could consist in achieving a state of freedom from money and social structure. These two examples of the American Dream are only drops in an ever-expanding spectrum of possibilities.
I think the American Dream is still an open choice for everyone. Yes everyone has the opportunity to reach their highest goals unless there are personal issues that get in the way of that but they still have free education from K-12 grade. FAFSA is offered at colleges it is really up to you on what YOUR american dream is. No one can define what an american dream is because it is different for everyone. Everyone has the potential will power to pursue their long term goals and wildest dreams it is just a matter of action and knowledge that will guide them in the right direction to achieve that long term goal.
"The American Dream is the freedom that allows all citizens and most residents[1] of the United States to pursue their goals in life through hard work and free choice (see Immigration to the United States). One person may place monetary gain as their highest goal, and thus strive for this in a very American way, gaining through ability rather than social status. For another, the American Dream could consist in achieving a state of freedom from money and social structure. These two examples of the American Dream are only drops in an ever-expanding spectrum of possibilities.
The phrase's meaning has evolved over the course of American history. The Founding Fatherseducation and its consequent career opportunities. It is the opportunity to make individual choices without the restrictions of class, caste, religion, race, or ethnic group. used the phrase, "life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness." it began as the opportunity to achieve greater material prosperity than was possible in their countries of origin. For others it is the opportunity for their children to grow up and receive an
President Clinton said, "We need a new spirit of community, a sense that we are all in this together, or the American Dream will continue to wither. Our destiny is bound up with the destiny of every other American."I think the American Dream is still an open choice for everyone. Yes everyone has the opportunity to reach their highest goals unless there are personal issues that get in the way of that but they still have free education from K-12 grade. FAFSA is offered at colleges it is really up to you on what YOUR american dream is. No one can define what an american dream is because it is different for everyone. Everyone has the potential will power to pursue their long term goals and wildest dreams it is just a matter of action and knowledge that will guide them in the right direction to achieve that long term goal.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
technology
Our society is always praising science and technology. We see both of these as progress. Is there a dark side to science and technology? What do we lose? Does it change who we are or who we should be? Does Thoreau have a point when he advocates simplifying life? He doesn't see the need to take a train when he can walk.
Of course there is a dark side to science and technology we are too wrapped up in it. It's to the point where now we rely on technology to do the job for us. Its just making us more and more lazy in my opinion. Thoreau most definitely has a point, people are just lazy now a days and they rely on cars, or public transportation, or cell phones, TV, computers, to keep them busy or get them where they need to go. Which adds on to global warming with the transportation thing.
Of course there is a dark side to science and technology we are too wrapped up in it. It's to the point where now we rely on technology to do the job for us. Its just making us more and more lazy in my opinion. Thoreau most definitely has a point, people are just lazy now a days and they rely on cars, or public transportation, or cell phones, TV, computers, to keep them busy or get them where they need to go. Which adds on to global warming with the transportation thing.
power of the individual.
The main characters in the book portrayed a strong dominant attitude that was always for the equal for everyone. No matter what anyone said they still kept their opinions strong and their drive stronger. It was for sure that no one could get in the way of what they wanted to do. I think these books are idealistic because there were abolitionists in our history who have sacrificed their life to give our people their individual freedom. These books are also motivational books and inspirational books.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
should not.
In my opinion I believe there should be no limitation to what should not be taught unless it offends students in anyway. School is a place to be educated with past, present, and future knowledge. According to wikipedia, "Education is the learning of knowledge information and skills during the course of life." how can you learn the skills of life if schools are putting restrictions on what you are eligable to learn?
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Debate
Honestly, I think the should not side should have won. Strong points, strong arguments, good rebutal. Overall there were good and bad things about each side. Tyra's and Martha's rebutals were both very well thought out and presented. Trung had a good conclusion. Ryan had an oustanding presentation. Enrique just made it a bonus for the should not side. My role was to research information for my group.
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