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021210:
just one more day until he comes and we still haven't made ends even. i mean we talked a little bit yesterday but i just was so lost and confused i mean i wanted to believe him but he really broke my heart yesterday. he tells me that "it was a one day thing and he was speaking out of anger." i told myself that after reading that comment i would try my best to not take it to the heart but it is so hard not to when someone says those harsh words to you and it is supposed to be more than your best friend but someone who truly loves you or well at least i thought he did. that is what hurt me the most and all of my anger and disappointment just spilled out when i was texting him yesterday before i went golfing. i just needed to get out of the house and just spend stay occupied and not think about anything.
well on a brighter note, when we were at the Los Lagos Golf Course and the boys were late because they went to McDonalds! It was one of the most funnest golf days ever :] my friends definitely made me forget all of my troubles up until we all had to leave :[ then i called up tom and we went to eastridge and i felt and looked horrible so i put on my shades at the mall yeah i know don't say anything i already know what you are thinking. and tom pretended to be my security guard so i won't look so weird haha "ms. brenda song." and after i made sure he remembered what kind of eyelashes i like and what number (red cherry #1 & 47 :] ) well after that i had a huge craving for Today for some odd reason but we weren't ballin enough to eat it becuase it costs 24 dollars! after that we went to the food court and i had the hardest time picking something out to eat and i think it was because i was just really upset and i lost my appetite when my day is just completely ruined. then we got ice cream and the new chocolate dipped ice cream cones at McDonalds are good! after that i took tom home and then my night basically ended.

021210:
so today i woke up did the usual morning routine then left for school. i completely forgot it was friday until i remembered i was doing a LTA today. well periods one thorugh four were very mellow not tough or had a lot of work at all. during lunch it was hard to really get everyone amped up when my fellow emcee was not very energetic soooo yeaaah i will just leave it as that. after the lunch time activity my last period we watched the cutest movie i forgot what it was called but i didn't sleep for once! haha then after school i went home and took a nap then a call wakes me up and it was my mom. she told me to come get her because she accidently locked herself out of her car so i was like okay and she kept rushing me and things do not go well when i am rushed so i had to get all my stuff ready for work and then i had a feeling i was staring at my room for some reason but then i was like eh whatever im just dazing. then after that i close my door and i realize i don't have my keys and i left them inside FMLx13840842304873280473!!! damn! so then my aunt had to come get me and i had to have her drive me to work or else i was going to be late. so i got my keys went to work and asked my manager trung to take me home after work. today was one of the longest and tiring days ever. it was horrible mentally because when i would listen to our stores music i constantly kept thinking about him and everything that happened and i was about to go into tears but i had to stay professional. he has got me completely drowned. i just lost control of myself and i feel like im exaggerating at times but he is just too special to me and it was just a hard slap in the face. then i try my best to talk to him today but he was always busy so i just gave up. he is right now at the club which i am not suprised but yeah i probably won't get a chance to talk to him until i actually see him tomorrow. sigh... well stay tuned; we will see what happens next...... <3 jasmine nguyen.